I grieve for the girl I could’ve been.
Being mentally ill jn your 20s is not the same as being mentally ill as a teenager. It’s just embarrassing. Everyone got better and I’m still stuck in my mind. Nothing improved, nothing changed.
Why can’t I move on and just be better?
~M 10.10.2022 22:33
I want to be touched but I avoid it as much as I can
I want to be heard but I don’t speak
I want to be seen but I hide myself and make me invisible
I want true connection and intimacy with someone but I keep myself as distant as possible
I want love but I don’t think I deserve it
It’s difficult to live like this.
I think the worse feeling is feeling so dumb after really trying your hardest to be vulnerable again. In any type of relationship- romantic or platonic.
Ummmm I’m sensitive
